Mist

This morning I was reflecting on why I decided to go to Haiti, and how God's hand was a part of my decision from the beginning. All along we were planning on starting a family this year, so we decided that the hubby would go alone, because we didn't want to risk anything with the recommended vaccinations. About a month prior to his departure, we received news that we wouldn't be able to have children right now. (Maybe I'll share the whole story at a later time.)This caused a mix of emotions in us. We had been preparing for parenthood for about a year now, constantly dreaming about our kids and what our life will be like when we finally meet them! We believe and trust in God that His plan for us is to be parents. I don't care about how I become a mom, just as long as I am one. We already know the names of our children... we've had one of them picked out since our teenage years! We would love a family of four kids, one in each arm, perfect for playing games with (as my dad always said!) Josh says he prays for twin boys and after hearing from Grandma about how much twins run in our family he gets really excited and giggly! Josh will make a GREAT daddy. Seeing how he is with friend's babies and the kids at King's Orphanage. He will be so helpful, cuddly/ loving, and a wonderful leader. I am so thankful I married him, because God knew exactly what I would need in a spouse and gave me that in Josh.

For now we trust in God's most perfect timing and know He will be faithful and provide these desires of our hearts... one way or another! He has a perfect plan and we trust in it. So that is why, in a nutshell, I decided to go to Haiti. Many friends and family asked why I decided to go and probably thought I'd given up on wanting a family. And that is far from the truth. God has other plans for me right now, and I am following His lead and trusting that He is developing me into the Mommy He has created me to be.

God called me to go back to Haiti, just one month prior to departure. The exact day our team leaders purchased the plane tickets. I knew God wanted me to go as I spent time in His Word. I read James 4:13-17. "Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.' Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that. As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. Anyone, then who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins."
This verse spoke straight to my heart. I heard God saying, this door is open for you to go serve and encourage my people in Haiti. Who am I to say no to God! I quickly told Josh I was going and they made sure to buy one more plane ticket. Before the creation of the world, God planned for me to go on that trip. This wasn't anything new to Him. It was all a part of His plan all along. It was a stretch and a step of faith for me to leave the comforts of my home and go to a hot 3rd world country. But I am so glad I did! Stories and reflections from the trip coming soon!!